Heya,

I’m 15 years old and I live in the Netherlands, also known as Narnia. I don’t have many friends or people I trust because I have trouble with trusting people because of some events in my life.

It al started about 3years ago, my sister got in trouble in school and she didn’t want to go anymore. She didn’t want to be home anymore cause my dad abused her when he was drunk, so I understand that, she got in touch with the wrong friends and started doing drugs. She was almost never home, we didn’t know where she was..

Because my sister was never home„ my dad started to abuse me, he hits me, cuts me, burns me, and he even tried to rape me several times.

At the time that started I just got a boyfriends, I loved him with everything I had, we were almost every day together and I told him everything. I loved him and his family, I went to family trips and stuff, I felt like a part of his family, never felt that way before. But after 15amazing months he decided my life was to hard.

He hated it when I complained about my life. He even thought I made up some things. It was really hard for me.. trying to live without him. I texted him almost every night. He was the only person I trusted.

I just got in a new class, and after 3months of school I was 2weeks away cause I couldn’t get out of bed, because of the break up. There were 2girls I really liked. One of them is for me now my best friend, don’t know if it’s the same for her.

Now„ well, my dad still abuses me. My ex and I are in a really weird thing.. I don’t even get it. For some reason I just can’t let him go. But I can live with it for now.

Iknownooneisgonnareadthis x)

Sorry for my bad English ;x