Last Saturday my scouting group had an afternoon of soccer..
I was wearing shorts„ and I didn’t mind. Everybody knows about the scars on my legs and no one talks to me about because they know it makes me sad.. but for some reason my ex sat down next to me„ he put his finger on my scars and whispered: “they’re already fading.” and I just didn’t know what to do..
I don’t mind looking at my scars, I see them every day.. but my ex.. I know he sees them sometimes„ but he nevers says anything about it.. and now„ he does that.. It makes me sad because my scars are one of the reasons he kinda hates me.. and I don’t like it when he says something about them because it hurts him too..
Sorry, had to get it off my chest.
Why.. if you knew that I didn’t want it.. why did you do it?
Saying you’re sorry afterwards doesn’t work.. please app me, or facebook me or add me back on skype.. I don’t know. but talk to me.
Going to France for a week. So everything will be on queue.
Going to miss you guys<3
I don’t give a shit if I’m starting to sound overly attached again. I want you here with me, right now.. you fucktard.
well.. not really anniversary„ i don’t know how to call it. Wish I could message him or something.. I’ll just see if he sents me something. I told him that it was today.. we’ll see I guess..
I have to study tomorrow >< schoolexams next week, the last ones.. before my real exam! My grades are awesome so it’s gonna be okay. :D
I love every single one of you guys<3
So yeah, it’s 2;30 am.. I have to get up early in the morning for the hospital but I can’t sleep.. and it’s gonna reflect bad on my tests xD.
I don’t know why but I really want to talk to my ex for no reason.. I don’t even have anything to say, but I’m not gonna talk. If he wants to talk he has to start.. and every word I say to him in a chat or something.. every thing I say is making the chances of me getting to talk to my ex in person on friday smaller.
I like this picture.. I know everyone thinks it’s a stupid pic.. let me tell you why I like it..
This is a picture of my foot next to a bottle of beer, and the shoe of my ex.. When I wanted to take the picture I wasn’t planning on his foot.. but he sat next to me on the couch and put his foot there. I didn’t know why but I took the picture.. after the photo.. me and my ex had the first kinda awkward short conversation during scouting in months.. and this picture reminds me of that, because after this picture, everything is going kinda okay between me and my ex (:
I was pretty pathetic Saturdaymorning.. I hugged his blanket, even though he was an arm length away. I felt lonely and was crying.. but he already turned me down when I wanted to spoon him.. I don’t know what was up with him, but I didn’t like it