It went well. He didn’t forget about me and he wants to work things out because he loves me n.n
3 more hours.. I’m so scared. Blerg. Expect the worst and hope for the best. Nothing else I can do.
I can’t sleep. I’m so nervous.. I don’t know what I’m gonna do if he breaks up with me.. I’ll probably just hug him, cry and tell him I’m sorry I put him through this again. I’m so scared. I love that stupid bastard..
I’m nervous about tomorrow.. I hope it goes okay, that I just get a hug and we talk about our relationship.. and if not.. I can’t do anything about it. I told him to think about what he really wants, and if that’s what he really wants, I will accept that.
I just really hope for the best. I’m such an idiot.
I feel so stupid.. I got mad at my boyfriend last night because„ well the story is to long to explain.. but I got mad and asked if he wanted to break up.. he said he didn’t know and that it was hard.. Then I said to him that he could think about it till Wednesday, and then I’ll come over and he could tell me his decission. But I know him.. and when things get hard or complicated he quits.. I don’t want him to do that. I love that freaking idiot with all his bad sides and good sides… and I just„ I don’t want him to break up with me.. I want to fight for what we have with all I have.. and that isn’t much but I really want this to work.. and it’s hard not to talk to him all day, and this was just day 1.. I still have tomorrow to go, and Wednesday… but Wednesdat I get to text him at what time I can come over.. and then I’ll know.. and I hope he decides to fight for us too..
Sorry for being a baby..
I’ve been thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend for 2 weeks now.. I should probably tell him, shouldn’t I?
I feel so useless, I want to help him. I want to make him feel better, but he won’t talk to me..
I have this weird thing where I either utterly obsess about someone new or I instantly hate them and everything they do is annoying.
Meh, I think I’m having my first discussion/fight thingy with my boyfriend.. I don’t want that.